Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Struggling.




I want to give up. Trying to stay motivated is just not happening.

I cannot stand without assistance with this dang cast, so I have to lean on my crutches.
I am DEBBIE DOWNER. I don't even like re-reading this, because I sound so pessimistic. Fresh start tomorrow. SWEAT and TEARS...Right?

9 comments:

Karilynn said...

You have so much on your plate right now and it can be hard to look at the bright side. Just don't sweat the small stuff. You don't have to weigh in right now! Root canals suck.. a positive would be that you probably didn't have too many calories today! ;o) It's okay to have a down day or week.. in this competition you can even have a down month. Just know that you can do it! We are all here to support you even when you are feeling a little pessimistic! :o)

Vicki said...

At least the root canal is over ;)

It will be so nice when you get your cast off too.
Happy things ahead :)

Lorie said...

I just want to send you a cyber hug. Hang in there!

Kristi said...

Oh man, I hate those yucky feeling days!!! And it's worse that you had to start it out with a root canal. So you get your cast off in another week or two? That's something great to look forward to. Well, I hope you make it through the day and you can start fresh tomorrow feeling better about everything.

Melissa Davis said...

ah Christi, I'm sorry!! Hang in there! You just had a great trip with your best bud...keep positive (yeah, coming from ME he he). You know you can do this, you've done it before!

Hollys Hobbies said...

So kick Debie Downers a** to the curb, tomorrow you will be... Peppy Percy =). I know you have struggled the last year with everything that has happened with your health. It sucks rocks and eats cheese, and not the lowfat acceptable kind either! I am here for you whenever you need to vent, or a driver, or whatever. I love ya!!

Anonymous said...

Christi--a friend of mine always said, "Remember who you are....and don't let it get you down." Wait..that's not inspirational.
I watched my 2 sick nieces for the past 10 days. The 18 month old (Lucy) threw up in the car while I was taking my brother to the airport..so we were transporting vomit to and from Salt Lake. The 3 year old (Emmma) was lathargic and feverish for half of the 10days. Difficult to wake and scary. Lucy was losing her weight daily in snot. The stuff in her hair was not hair jell! When Emma got a little better then Lucy had a huge reaction to the antibiotics she was on. Spots everywhere..spreading as you watched. At that point I just laughed and said, "Bring it!"
Now--my ten days are over--tiny compared with all your stuff--but you will be running marathons sooner than you think and we will still be in awe of the incredible you. You're amazing--I don't care what you say!
Bring it!

PartyBarb said...

You did a food journal? That is so cool. I haven't gotten that far yet. Tell me the details. Please. -Barb

Love to Lose said...

Chris,
Even with all the crap you have had, you are doing an amazing job of keeping sane. Even through the tears your voice still has a smile. Keep up the good work. "This, too, shall pass....". Not STAY, but pass.
As the gazelle dude Tony says, "You can do itttttttt!"
I love you!
Mom