Bliss. Sleep.Too much to do Saturday. Long winded stuff about nothing.

YEAH!!!
I was able to fall asleep before 3 am! It was close, but I did it! I feel somewhat refreshed. Although, the last few precious moments in bed should gave been cozy and lazy, but the thoughts started up again. The Grocery list was running though my head. The washing machine that we need to put the new agitator part on so I can do laundry. Mowing the lawn, preparing my Sunday School lesson one more time for tomorrow. I get to train a newbie. Boy is my replacement in for a huge roller coaster of a ride! ( I was released last week. I will tell you later what my newest calling is..) What kind of cake Aubrie wants for her birthday on Monday. Chocolate or white? I would assume, her being related to me that chocolate would be in order. Chores. Maybe going to the YMCA to work out today and let the kids swim.
What ever happened to lazy Saturdays? Reading the newspaper while sipping OJ and eating puffed cereal? That is why I chose to take a Mommy break from Soccer this fall. I just could not even deal with 3 different practices, 3 different days. 3 games on Saturdays, all different times. Aubrie was really peeved at me. More so when her old team coach called me up to take the team pictures. I told her that each kid could chose what activity they wanted to do this spring. Aubrie wants soccer. Kiera is leaning toward Gymnastics. Caleb will play b-ball this winter, and I was thinking of Piano in the spring. He has shown an apitude for playing. Nathan played the one song he even remembers from years back,( E.T theme song, LOL) and Caleb went to the piano after he left, and played it. He has my ear for it,( I can play anything one handed by ear, but I don't read music well, although I know the notes....) and perhaps the gift to really make some beautiful music. He is such a talented guy, that little man of mine.

Nathan and I got to go out last night on a date. We had free movie passes. We went and ate at On the Border, and then saw The Guardian. It was a pretty good movie, overall. I am not a Kevin Costner fan, or Ashton Kutcher, but it was a good film. So, I give it 3 thumbs up! That is, If I had 3 thumbs I would do so.Maybe 2 thumbs and a big toe. :)

I have been enjoying old pictures that Holly's friend Barbara has been sending me. I look at them and see the fight I fought even then for control of my hair. I guess the 80's isn't the best hair decade, especially for someone with curly hair. At the time I thought it looked good. I had a fro. Blow drying curly hair, as I see from the evedience, only increases frizz. And the poor ozone from all that Aqua Net. Watch for pictures from my past later on today!

Insomnia

Insomnia is characterized by an inability to sleep and/or to be incapable of remaining asleep for a reasonable period. Insomniacs typically complain of being unable to close their eyes or "rest their mind" for more than a few minutes at a time. Both organic and nonorganic insomnia constitute a Sleep disorder. It is often caused by fear, stress, anxiety, medications, herbs or caffeine. An overactive mind or physical pain may also be causes. Finding the underlying cause of insomnia is usually necessary to cure it.

I can't sleep. I just lie there looking at the red projector clock on the ceiling. I count how many times Nathan turns over. I kick the cat around with my restless feet. I hear every creek the house makes. I listen to the Fedex planes fly over the house. I hear every groan, snore, sigh, cough, sniffle that each child/spouse makes. I know every morning around 1:30 am Kiera stumbles up the stairs, knocking into walls and doors, fumbling for the bathroom light( Even though there is a functional, bright night light.)

My mind is overactive. I think about too many things, but this occurs all day every day. I really would like my night to be free of worry and wondering. When I do get that opportunity to fall into a deep sleep, I am living my day over again in my dreams. ( Very vivid dreams, I might add)

I have tried just about everything. Herbal Tea. Hot shower. Last night I ended up on the couch reading some love story at 1 am. ( I hate romancy novels...yeah, I know that romancy is not a word. Add it to my list of Christiisms.) I was giggling, eating Haagen Daas Dulce Leche ice-cream out the container, with a purring cat snuggled up against me. Sounds nice, but preferably during the daylight hours. I did eventually fall asleep. I woke up on the couch, and no sooner than lying my head on my own pillow, in my own bed, did both little girls wake up. Sigh.

So, it says above that " Finding the underlying cause of insomnia is usually necessary to cure it.So, what is the underlying cause? It's not like I am lying there in a darkened room, tired and praying to stay awake. I WANT to sleep. I NEED to sleep. SO, what is the cure??

ChristinaMaria